So, who am I?

This is not only a question for my followers, but for myself as well. The first step in making positive shifts and change is establishing who you are - even the things you really don't want to admit.

The Basics
I am Tesia (tess-e-uh). I am seventeen years old. I am a resident of North Carolina. My genetics include "50%" Lithuanian, Scotts-Irish, and Cherokee.. as well as mental disorders.
I have a great, small circle of friends. I have a loving boyfriend of two years.
I at one point reached 190, got my butt into shape, and am currently 138. I have kicked lots of bad habits
(no more soda, less sweets, little to no fast food) to get there.
I am beginning my last semester of high school and plan to get my bachelors in Nursing, hopefully with a focus in holistic health.

The Positives
I have the knack of writing, the determination of a bull (a perfect Taurus match), and a passion for knowledge.
I love people and humanity. The world can be an evil, destructive place, but it can also be so vivid, beautiful, and kind.
I am very intrigued by religions, faiths, and spirituality. The more I learn about them the more I learn about myself and others. This only augments my love for the world and makes me want to be a better person.
I can make my friends laugh and always keep up a conversation.

The Negatives
I'm very stubborn and lazy. I am determined once I break away from this laziness, which is a challenge in itself.
I have the most difficult time living in the present without worrying about the future or dwelling on the past...
... and because of this, I have difficulty letting things go completely. I'll break all of the "strings" but one, and it takes the force of an army for me to cut that last one and let go of the situation completely.
I'm indecisive. Not the simple, "I can't decide where I want to go eat" kind-of indecisive, but the "what on Earth should I do with my future" kind-of indecisive - the one that will matter in the long run.
I often overindulge.
I'm socially awkward to the point of minor anxiety. This is not constant, and is only on-and-off.
I take things too personal and dwell on it for anywhere from an hour to a day.

Who I Want to Be
A person that most anyone can trust, with their wallet, keys, or life.
A person who does random acts of kindness on a daily basis.
An individual who knows and love their spirituality, is always open minded to learn, and advocates coexistence.
An individual that lives, laughs, and loves in the present moment, and who has let go of past regrets, actions and thoughts.
An individual that is consistently motivational and who motivates others through positive action.

So, who are you? And who do you want to be? How will you get there?

Love, light, and peace,
T. Smith